Nathan

08:21 pm: So I was feeling better about this and was just going to drop it and avoid the place. However, I walked out back today to show someone the remains of Philium's pants that he burned. (haha) And low and behold there is one of the girls taking the trash out. She said hi first and so I said hi and tried to ignore her but I couldn't help myself and talked to her for a second. Basically, I apologized and said that I hope they didn't think I was flirting with them. I clearly put her on the spot but she said it is no biggie (heh) and that it was just her manager didn't like them talking to me instead of working.

That is bullshit, since I rarely talked to them and never when their manager is there. So for a while I felt better until I thought about it more. Thinking is rarely good. Little backstory to this girl. Originally, I thought she was the only one of the girls who didn't think I was creepy. We hired two new girls and one of them told me that her friend (aforementioned hallmark girl) told her not to talk to me. Then when she saw my face she back-peddled and said that she was just joking. I replied that it wasn't funny.

Anyway. On one hand I just want to move on and forget it, and I want to believe her. However, my whole conclusion that it was the girls and not the manager was based off of this girl telling my co-worker not to talk to me. So on the other hand, she was probably lying to me to get the attention off of her from a creepy guy. ;)

Well, really, I just wanted to write this all down to work through it in my head.

06:20 am: I've decided that I haven't done anything wrong and even though it hurts to think that just by being nice I creep out girls, I am not at fault here.

03:29 pm: When I woke up again today, for just a second I forgot all of this. Just a couple things I wanted to add...

They are 16 and 17, and that is one of the concerns. I find this pretty fucking ironic considering the whole Elizabeth saga. If only the manager knew, heh.

Since I didn't flirt with them or ask for their phone numbers or even have a real conversation with them at all, I can guarantee that the only reason I creep them out is my looks. That is just about what hurts the most. I can promise you that if I was attractive this would be just the opposite. Not many 16 year old girls would complain if an attractive older guy was bringing them free food once a week.

Before this, my self esteem and confidence were at an all-time high. Now, they're pretty fucking low.

03:29 am: end thyself, paladin
So I get to work today and Matt brings me outside to tell me something. Considering how much I loathe Matt, I wasn't expecting anything good. This, however, caught me off guard completely.

The manager from Hallmark (next to my store) called and asked to speak with the manager. Apparently, some guy from Domino's named Nathan has been harassing her girls. Asking for their phone numbers, opening doors for them, etc, basically just creeping them out.

First of all, I have never flirted with them. I have never asked for any of their phone numbers. I have never been anything but nice to them. The one and only thing I am guilty of is bringing them free cheesy bread about once a week because it made my day a little brighter seeing their faces light up with excitement. Also, they helped me find a card when I didn't have time so I did that as a thank you.

The fact that I creep them out so much that they had to go to their manager makes me honestly want to disappear. I went to sleep right when I got home and unfortunately for me and, apparently, the rest of the world, I woke up.

05:06 am: yay
Tonight, I closed by myself for the first time. It may have taken an hour and a half (usually 45 minutes to an hour) but I'm still quite satisfied.

For some reason my shoulder is killing me...

And I have to be at work in 4 hours and I haven't slept yet, here we go. ;)

06:54 am: yep
Nearly sold out Tool tickets: $100
Tool shirt from Hot Topic: $19
Water bottle at the show: $4
Being there for your best friend's first concert: priceless.

Great day, for a change.

06:04 am: So my schedule for this week isn't going to be as bad as I initially thought. So that's good. I wouldn't really mind, though, since I'm making well over a hundred dollars a night with my assistant anager wages plus tips/mileage. (only for this week, and maybe fridays after that)

I took in a whole heck of a lot of info today and I'm just hoping my feeble memory banks won't collapse in on themselves. But wouldn't that be a sight...

The Trace and I are going to go see Tool on the 29th. I'm really looking forward to that. I also just saw that Evanescence is coming in October but I doubt I can get anyone to go see them with me. Maybe though! Still thinking about Ladytron, too.

k-bye

04:12 am: I am getting promoted to assistant manager today. I'm excited.

12:35 am: hi
I've been really missing the old days a lot lately. I've felt nostalgic many times since quitting the everquest but I haven't really looked back and wanted to start playing again. Untill now that is.

I played world of warcraft for about 4 months while I was going to school and had time. Now, I don't have any time for it but my account is still active and I log in every once in a while to chat with old friends. I even raided a few times. However, I just can't stand that game, ugh.

I may start up my account for eq1 and play seldomly with a few old friends, but I don't have the time they do and I don't want to be playing catch up the whole time. Soo, I don't know.
Maybe more on this later.

03:04 am: Good news is that I will be a driver again. Bad news is that I will have to pay about 300 dollars more (every 6 months) for insurance for my own policy. At least, I will be making enough to pay it, though. Right now as a CSR, I'm definitely spending more than I'm making, and I'm only buying food, gas, and paying the car note with a little going to fun. Well, that's not entirely true, I've probably spent more on Elizabeth than on myself the past month..So yeah.


Going to the home opener Real Salt Lake game Saturday. Can't wait.

In other news, there is no news. Not any that I can put on here, anywhere.

K bye.

10:48 pm: yeah
I have been working as a CSR (customer service rep.) for a week while we see what I can do about the insurance. Which is, basically...nothing.

John is the coolest boss ever, and I like everyone I work with. With that said, John offered me an interview to become an assistant manager. I thought about it long and hard and I turned him down. Several reasons for this, first and foremost I just don't want to deal with the crap they do with the customers and stuff. Also, it's a pretty big commitment and I don't want to have that responsibility and go to college at the same time.

So, I went in today prepared to tell John that I was going to put in my two weeks. I told the new (4 weeks) girl, Elizabeth, this and for three hours straight she literally begged me not to. It was cute but also sad. So what I told John instead is that I'll be getting an overnight job (like I told him when I was first hired) and I'll continue to be a CSR for now, but only 3 or so nights a week.

This works well for me, extra money for easy work that I just love doing and I like everyone I work with, like I said. So it's a win-win situation. Now I just need that overnight job...more on that at some point!

To be continued...(dun dun dun)

12:16 am: so
I went outside to take pictures of my car, then realized that there were already some on-line, so why bother? :p





Yay.

05:30 am: Not a great day.
I had a car picked out that I liked. I wasn't sure if I wanted to buy it now or wait untill after I looked at the car lot of the auction house some guy my mom knows. Upon further thought, however, I decided it would be most prudent to go ahead and buy it. You can't be sure what the condition of a car would be at the auction house, even if you do save a lot of money.

So, I got up early today expecting to go purchase it. Then I find out that I haven't been covered by my insurance while driving for work these past three months. On top of that, I can't be covered while delivering pizzas. Not just my insurance company, either, all of the companies we called will not cover pizza deliverers. Not unless you go with a commercial policy. Go ahead and guess what how much that costs...give up? $4,200 a year. That is just absurd.

So.
Yeah.

Clearly, I can not continue to deliver pizzas. Which is such a shame because, believe it or not, I was thorougly enjoying it, and love everyone I work with. 

Now here's the deal. My car (Volvo) is just too unsafe to drive, and is pretty much done. I have been using my mom's car for work for two weeks. Without insurance, my mom will not let me drive, and rightfully so. So unless we can somehow find insurance that isn't ridiculously high, I have to quit Dominos and find find a new job. I was approved for a loan for 10,000 from a credit union. If I quit my job, I would probably lose that. I don't know that for sure, but I didn't want to take the chance. I don't think we could afford me not having a car for 3-5 more months of working at a new job just to get approved for the loan again.

So we went to go buy it. '99 Toyota Camry, Black, 103k miles. That is more miles than I wanted, but it's in good shape and it is a Camry. I figured since this one had the 100k mile maintenance (most importantly - the timing belt) it would be worth it. By the time we were done at the dealership, I had an hour to be at work, and we still had to finalize it at the credit union. However, we called the day before and before going to said dealership, so we figured it wouldn't take long, since everything was set. 

Wrong.

First, when we get there, he doesn't have anything ready. That's okay - people get busy and we still have time. Then we find out that they will only do the higher interest rate loan at 36 months. When before they had said the lower interest / 60 month. This is upsetting, not because of the money (50 dollars more a month) but because of the miss-information. 

I had no time to argue or anything, because I had to be at work in 10 minutes, AND explain this whole mess to my boss and tell him that I can't drive. My plan was to work as an insider, since it was Friday. So I signed the papers and got everything squared away and headed to work. My boss took it pretty well and gave me the day off, probably the whole weekend. Has to be the whole weekend, actually, because the insurance companies aren't open on the weekends. 

I don't know what will happen with the insurance or the job. All I know for sure is that I'm now officially in debt for the first time in my life, and don't *really* have a job. 

Later on, I'll post pictures of the car, it's quite sex.

05:19 am: wow
Just found out that one of the people I regularly play xbox live with was found dead in his room yesterday. I don't think it has quite sunk in yet, because I'm not devestated. How horrible is that? I can't explain it. So far, my night has gone the same as any other night, but, I think it is sinking in, even if slowly.

To be honest, I haven't played with him for a few weeks. However, for a few months, we played for hours almost nightly. I just canceled my account on WoW and was planing on playing with him and the others more from here on out...

I don't know what to say. He will be missed. We had some excellent times.


The first time I met him and his group it was in a team training match. 1 flag capture the flag on Burial Mounds. We were on opposite teams and my entire team quit at the start. I picked up the sniper rifle and for some reason was just amazing that night. Was probably fate - to impress these guys so that I'd have a new group to play with. It worked. I just utterly destroyed them. They won, of course, but they sent me friend requests and we've been playing ever since.

If I hadn't have met this guys, I probably would have stopped playing a long time ago.

Thanks for all the good times and laughs, GR...Tim. This is for you.

01:34 am: So!
Finally had the first procedure done for my tooth. Hurt like hell, seriously. Just four more months before I can get rid of this stupid retainer flipper tooth!

During the Super Bowl rush my car died, twice. It was weird, the engine just cut out. We had it towed to the shop and after two days they couldn't find anything wrong with it. It's not like I'm just imaginging that the engine cut out, twice. So there definately is something wrong with it. Anyway, we got it back and it worked fine execpt for cutting out once today. So..while ideally, I wanted at least 6 months to get a down payment together to get a nice car, I am wondering if I'll even get a few weeks. Bags.

As for the automobile I would want, I am torn. Obviously, I want the best value for the lowest price, that goes without saying. I'm torn, though, because I don't know if I want a really high mpg car, (like a *gulp* Honda Civic) or a relatively high mpg small SUV with 4WD. (like a Toyota RAV4, Chevy Tracker) Either way, I need the higher mpg. Now that I'm actually driving, a lot, 17 mpg is hurting. I figure 25ish for a car and at least 22 for an SUV, city. The 4WD will be nice, who knows if I'll still be driving at Dominos next winter, but getting stuck on the ice and snow with a heavy rear wheel drive car is not fun!

Any input is more than welcome! Advice or experiences. (this means you Katie and Shanna ;) ) My price cap may be significantly lower without any time to get a down payment. No more than 5-8k, unless it's an extremely good deal. Hopefully this purchase will last me through college, as well.

06:07 am: Sing me to sleep...
I wish I could sleep. So much so. It's the worst when you are super tired, go to bed, and it wakes you up. What is with that? What the fuck, in fact? There, I said it. It's not even consistant, and that is probably the worst thing. One night, I will be asleep within an hour, others, it takes three hours. Not to mention that when I do go to sleep, I don't stay asleep. I think that's why I am in bed for 9 to 11 hours. I don't really sleep that long, obviously. Even though my mom thinks I do. You can't tell my mom something enough..but I digress!


I find myself becoming more and more in the same spot I was in two years ago working for 7-11. It feels that all I do is work. This is because I wake up, go to work, and by the time I get home it's too late to do anything, especially with The Trace. Especially since I started closing. Which, by the way, we're losing a closing driver, so I'll probably taking more closing shifts.

This is exactly why I wanted an overnight job. I'm making pretty (relatively) good money, I can't complain about that. It will be interesting when I start college, though. I'm not sure I will be able to stay with Dominos and go to school. I've been living in the present for the last few years, so we will just have to see how it turns out, I reckon.

Had an awesome birthday. Spent it with three of my favorite people, my mommy, The Trace, and Toninhodino. We went to a (overpriced) Brazilian place, but it was great. You may recall me saying last year that I was trying to break away from resenting my birthday and the attention it puts on me. I tried even more so this year, and it was awkard, but good.

It is nice to put thought to paper again. I will probably be updating more frequently now. Who knows, maybe I'll even start going deeper!

12:51 am: How embarrassing! I just went back and read some of my older posts and realized I had far more grammar errors than I thought. Guess I really should proof read stuff.

11:22 pm: Don't you forget about me..
Well. Hi.

I finally graduated from high school. Feels good. However, it also scares me. I now have to go face the world of working and higher education. I want to, though, I do. It just seems I have been hiding behind the wall of not having my diploma, or being sick, or whatever reason.

I don't know about this journal. I may keep it and update it every so often; may not. It was fun, and we had a good run, didn't we? I don't even know if anyone will check this, since I haven't updated in so long.

Chances are I'll have more things to write about as I move on with my life, I kind of ran out there for a few months!

02:31 am: Something..
..personally Huge for me. Seriously, it's amazing.

So I was making idle conversation with someone in my guild in WoW. Someone I've known for a long time, but never really talked to. Long story short, we basically found out that both of us have the same "affliction".

Please allow to me reiterate this to be quite clear.

We both have exactly the same symptoms. We talked for about an hour just on the symptoms. This is so excruciatingly awing that I can't even begin to describe it to you, my loyal viewers.

I've read that it is a real thing in a booklet the doctors gave me. I saw someone with it on the discovery channel, when they did a special on migraines. Even though they didn't come out and say it exactly, I knew.

But to find someone, a real person, who has it...

When people think you're faking because it's unusual. When people don't understand that it never goes away. When people don't believe you. You almost start to believe them yourself. This is truly one of the best things that has happened to me in years.

We share an empathy that I may never experience again in my life.

05:58 am: Hmm
Been a while!

At first it was just summer school, then I had nothing to write about. Then I had stuff to write about but I didn't.

Don't know, I still don't like the idea of this becoming a real journal.

So my internet went down a few Sundays back. My ISP owner, Steve, was out of town, too. The guy doing tech support for him couldn't figure it out. Finally we just plugged it straight into the computer, and now it goes down all the time, but at least we're connected. Without the router, I can't log into xbox live, however. Still haven't heard from Steve. He can be forgettful, though. Think I'll write him an email after this. ..went and did it now, actually!


So my room got a big make over, I'll post pictures once it's completley down. But let us just say that in my room at noon, it is pitch black.


I also started playing World of Warcraft again. I don't know why, exactly. Aaron started to play because his friends are, and he tried it out with a buddy account, and now has his own.

So then I logged into his account just to chat with some old friends. I guess I just found that I missed them, and that part of my life. I decided to start up again, casually. Though I must admit that it has been anything but in the past two weeks. Already level 38. My excuse for this is that I'm just leveling up as fast as I can before school starts up again, and when I get a job. We'll see how it goes when I no longer have free time.

I must say that it has been wonderful to see some of my old everquest crew. With a few notable absences.

Speaking of jobs, I finally got off my lazy butt and applied to Maceys (24 hour grocery store) for overnight stocking. They have it posted that they are hiring overnight stockers, and I put that I am available every night. So I can't think of why I haven't heard from them yet. While I'm not worried yet, if I don't hear from them by the end of a week, I may just have to apply somewhere else.

We also got memberships at 24 Hour Fitness. I admit that I have only gone twice, but it will increase. Those two times have been great, though. I really can't overdo it by any means or I'll get a migraine, so taking it slow. Just wish someone would understand that without me having to say it, but alas..

My sleep is anything but better lately. Normally I'm not getting to sleep untill 7-8 in the morning. That's late even for me. Hopefully it will change when school starts up.